It's good to be back
Getting shit off your chest
It’s good to be back
I’ll be honest, I have missed typing in this stupid window. It’s therapeutic, yet at the same time a good way to let other vets know they aren’t the only ones pissed off. Starting this thing as a blog, then moving it to the sub-stack realm felt pretty stupid initially. Yet every now and then I get a comment from someone and it makes all of this worth it.
I have no idea when or how I’ll change from this free-be to a paid subscription thing. Frankly, I’m not sure I have any extra knowledge worth paying for but I may swap things to a pay-prescription later on to weed out the bots and get more quality conversation going.
Getting shit off your chest.
There aren’t many ways that are, shall we say, “socially acceptable” ways of getting shit off your chest. I’ve noticed being away from this for so long I have bottled up quite a bit and have had my blood boiling more often. I didn’t realize what an outlet this really was.
This new move I discussed yesterday has been a God-send. Everything about this new location is soothing for me. I realized I needed to be “out in the sticks” but seeing how happy my wife and kids are out here makes it much more worth it than just for me. My wife picked the spot and she couldn’t have picked better!
My new outlet is here. Maine. Never in my life did I ever consider Maine as a place to settle down and raise my family. Never in my life have I felt my country as a whole is going to shit. I have quite a few bitches and gripes since the 2020 election. Probably some you will agree with and some you will completely disagree with. I try to not bring politics into this PTSD zone, but lets be honest. Everything in life is technically in the PTSD zone for us.
Finding a New Mission
I cannot stress the importance of finding a new mission in the battle with PTSD. I haven’t quite sorted out a mission yet. I know I have 2 things that have to happen but I have issues getting them to happen.
I have to get this site up and going on a regular basis again
I have to write about some of my experience in a book
Both of which are difficult when anti-social and procrastination seem to be predominate symptoms of my particular PTSD.
Eventually my mission is to focus on my own business, something I can run and prosper and hand down if my kids want. No offense to my current line of employment, I enjoy it but lets face it, I want what every American wants… to do my own thing. “Independence” if you will.
Whether it’s writing, or computers, or teaching life skills and/or computers, I have no idea. I guess I’ll figure it out but I do need to pick one and shift gears into getting one done. Tomorrow is not promised to any of us. So I can sit here and come up with many reasons to push shit off, or I can stop bitching and procrastinating and get shit done.
Journey to Find my Mission
That’s what I will focus on here I guess. The new format of this will be heavy on discussing the day-to-day dealing with trying to push past the PTSD and actually “LIVE” life. And using my discovery of a new mission and my progress to my mission as updates on here.
Join me if you like, comment if you have ideas.